I have written this post so many times. It has been on write, erase, repeat for almost a week now. If I'm being honest it is now Sunday (and my birthday) and I am writing this post because I NEED to get this up because I wanted it up Thursday. THURSDAY people, and I'm doing this now. I feel that it's falling flat of everything I want and NEED to say. Oh, how I have missed blogging but I suffered from something... Something terrible... Blogger burnout.
I left here because I was burning out... I felt that I wasn't doing the best I could by this blog, I wasn't doing the best I could for all of you, for the books I was reading. So, I thought with college and home life crushing in on me I would be better off somewhere where there was less pressure. Though moving gave a temporary relief, I began to feel like I was lagging, like I just didn't fit into the blogging community anymore. Though my new blogging family did everything in their power to make me feel right, I slipped further into burnout.
The struggle was seriously real and the harder I fought, the more it pulled me under. I was drowning in the books that I was so excited to buy, the ones I was once happy dancing to receive. Books were staring at me from my shelves accusing me of neglect, and the longer this happened the worse it got.
My solution... I stopped forcing myself to read. I bought the books and I appreciated them but I just didn't try. I was sad and I missed reading but it had to be done. Miraculously one day I realized that there was no longer a guilt, no longer a pressure. So, I tried to pick up a book. I was cautious but I wanted it so bad and to my delight I loved it. So, I picked up another and another and another.
Then my real test came... Writing a review. I struggled. I struggled with what to say and if the review was good enough and if anyone would like it. Then I remembered that pressure that I felt and started to panic. How could anyone ever want to read my reviews when I had been gone? When they aren't as good as so many reviewers, reviews are? After a bit of a meltdown I remembered... THIS IS FOR ME.
Yes, I want people to enjoy my reviews and my blog. Yes, I want authors and publishers to want me to post about them on the blog but it's okay if they don't. I may never be hugely popular but I will have people, authors, bloggers and others that support me and I will do the same. I hope that many of you will find my return happy. That you will share your blogs with me so I can visit and start being an active part of blogging. I want to support others and I WANT to be a part of the community.
So for all of you reading this:
So because I'm back and super excited about it, and because today is my birthday I want to give one of my readers something!! You will have a choice of a Book from the Book Depository up to $20 or something from Evie's Society 6 store up to $20 (this is not from Evie it's just I love her store and I REALLY know many of you will love her awesome designs). The only catch is you have to be in a country in which the BD ships free and if you pick the Society 6 route I will ship when the shipping is World Wide free.
Here's the link to her store if you want to scope out what you could pick:
Evie Seo's Society 6